I'm serious guys. You guys better show up on wednesday. If any of you don't, I don't ever wanna see your face ever again. Nampak sgt korang lupa kawan. How many fucking times have I been there to listen to all your fucking problems? How many fucking times did I seat with you guys for recess eventhough my other friends came to school? Even when I was busy or had something to do I would be there and listen. Now this is how you guys treat me? Some fucking friends indeed. I'm putting my form 5 friends aside for awhile so that I have time for you guys. Because I know that this might be the last time I see any of you. And for those of you that cannot appreciate that, then we're better off not being friends at all.

The ones that cannot make it tu I understand. Like ekin tu, if her mum x kasi okay I understand. I can't go against her mum plak. The ironic thing is before school ended sume kata "tada hal la Bahrain. Fr you anything jalan." skrg pundeeekkkkkk. Sikit pon tada. Yg boleh harap Faris and Misha. I don't know laa. Mmg betul la mamat tu ckp. "melayu mudah lupa"

If I Die Tonight......

.......I'd die a happy man. Honestly. :) I have the most amazing girlfriend that any guy can ever have. The greatest friends. I've had an amazingly eventful life to the point where I would be content with not experiencing the rest of my life. :) No god, I'm not wishing to die tonight. Nopeeee. I'm just saying that I'm thankful to be blessed with all these great people on my life. :)

Fame, money and power can give you happiness. Yup they can. And whoever says otherwise is just trying to be Dalai Lama-ish. Come on, haven't any of you smiled so wide till your jaw hurts right after you bought something expensive to wear/use? Middle finger up to you if you haven't. Haha. :D

My point is although these things do give you happiness, it's only temporary. After that something gets a week old you'll say,"I need a newer one". But with friends that never happens. You'll never say you NEED a new friend. It'll make you sound like a complete and utter jackass! Haha.

Seriously, the life I've had and the type of friendships that I've forged, most people spend years to achieve the same thing. And I'm thankful that you guys have always had my back. Whenever, wherever. :) thanks guys. It means a lot to me. :)

I wanna turn back time :(

So I'd never thought I'd say this but I DON'T want school to end. I mean like seriously, everyday just seems to go faster and faster lately. The weeks feel like days and the days feel like hours. It's sad, really. :,-(

Honestly, this year has been the best year of my life. No, not because I represented my school in something for the first time this year. Not because this is my last school year. No. It's actually because of the friends I made. I mean who would've thought that I'd be dancing a tradisional dance with people I barely even knew 7 months ago? I was actually pressured into it by my friend Amir Syafiq bin Azhar. And thank god he did. :)

That led to me experiencing the best 6 months I've ever lived. Honestly. And frankly, I'm just not satisfied yet. It's been too short a time for me to get to know Anis, Faris, Misha, Ekin, Sab, Syuhadah and the rest. But in the time that I HAVE had with them, I enjoyed immensely. To the point where I know some of them inside out. :)

Granted I've had my fair share of downs in the past year as well as ups. I've been through a very very VERY bad break up. But later found someone who is sooooo much more suitable for me and who, in my humble opinion, loves me more than anyone ever did: Farhin Fateha binti Azim. :) Love you babe! Not to mention I've ran into trouble more than once this year. MAJOR trouble. But let's not get into that shall we? :)

So back to the friends part, I honestly can't imagine my life without these few FESTARIANS. Namely Faris and Anis. They helped me through my rough patches and also they supported me when I was doing well. I'm not saying the rest are useless. Noooooo! Hellll no! All I'm saying is that Faris and Anis are the ones that made the biggest impact on me. :) Sooo, I'll pay a little tribute to all of you. Here goes:

ANIS
You kannn. Haih. Honestly Anis I tak tau hidup I macam mana kalau you takde. Serious. :) You've been there for me through anything and everything. And I hope I was the same for you too. :) I just nak cakap thank you and I'll miss you but we'll still hangout k? Just gimme a call anytime. :)

FARIS
Bro! Kau memang kawan yang baik. Aku ada masalah ke, apa ke kau confirm tolong aku bai. And kawan macam tu memang susah nak cari. So aku bernasib baik laa untuk dapat kawan macam kau. Aku cakap kat kau masa time Festari lagi bai, kau nak pape call je aku. Kalau aku boleh tolong definitely aku akan tolong. :) thank you bro and I'm going to miss you too.

MISHA
Sha! Bai aku xle lupa time Rozana kita bai. Search pon akan kasi tabik sma Kota wa cakap sama lu. Ahaha. Kau memang the best Misha. Aku akan teringatkan kau Misha. Sampai bila-bila. :)

EKIN
Our president yang kecil tetapi garang nak mampus! Ahaha. Kalau tak pasal dia, confirm we wouldn't have gotten to the finals. Berapa kali dia merajuk dgn kitorg sebab tak dengar cakap punya pasal. Ahaha. Ekin you bagi I advice not too long ago and I was, I admit, cocky about it at the time. But I'm not ashamed to say that sekarang I dah ikut that advice and I hope sampai bila-bila we can remain friends. :) Thanksand sorry for everything. :)

SYUHADAH
She's my ex. She's cute, perky, and fun to be around. I've had a whole lot of fun with her and I hope she'll never forget me no matter what. :) I've said some hurtful things to her in the past and I hope she'll one day forgive me for it. Know that I still care about you as a friend and you can come to me about anything. I'll help you if I can. :) For what it's worth, I really did enjoy our moments together. They meant a lot to me. Memories that will last me a lifetime. :)

So there you have it. The people that changed my life amazingly over this past 6 months. You guys will always be in my thoughts. I've had fun. I've had sadness. Yet I'm okay with all that. I'm okay with a life that's been up and down. After all, what's the thrill of a life that just goes well all the time? ;-)

Thanks Saaa!

For those of you that are wandering about the title.......Liesa called me McDreamy people!!!! Hahaha. Thanks Saa! Didn't know i was THAT good-looking. Ahaha. Well then again what are best friends for kan??? Ahaha

Pure Fun

So today has got to be my luckiest day ever. Started at 9.30. I was waken up by a phone call by Maxis. Turns out my new iPhone arrived early. Waaaaayyyyy early. So after Friday Prayers, went to pick it up. After that went to visit the grandparents who happened to be down with something. Stayed there till about 5.30 then went to Tropicana City Mall. Walked around a little bit then proceeded for dindin's at The Waterlily, Mutiara Tropicana. Food's quite amazing actually. Indonesian food, to be exact. I just got home about 20 mins ago and currently in the process of restoring my iPhone then gonna head for bed. Ciao people. So fucking tired.

New Beginnings

Yo people. Guess what? I fucked up my left ankle again. That's like the third time this year. -_- Seriously it's getting bloody fucking annoying. So today has been mediocre at best, boring at worst. Not too bad, right? Wrong! Tell me how the fuck am i suppose to walk around with practically only ONE functioning foot? Bollocks. Anyways, back to the day's story, today all 6 of us came to school which felt like something that hadn't happened in a long time. Lately it's only been me and Cong coming to school cause the rest are all lazy fucks right? AHAHA. My iPhone's suffering from god knows what so I'll be taking that to Maxis in the morning.

Actually, i think I've experienced my best ever school day on Friday last week. I mean it's been a long time since i hung out with my form 3 classmates. So that brought back some nostalgic feelings la. ;-) So anyways, I've been facing sort of an emotional dilemma, hence, the post titled, "Can't Fight This Feeling". Honestly, I love my girlfriend, It's just that i felt guilty to her for allowing myself to be in a situation where "old feelings" start to crop up again. And for that babe, i apologize from the bottom of my heart. I honestly don't know why i did what i did. But if anything, that post should prove to you that YOU are the only one in my heart. :-) Damn, that's cheesy. Haha. Well ciao peeps. See ya when the sun comes up. Haha.

Can't Fight This Feeling

I have personally had my ups and downs when it comes to relationships. Relax! I'm not gonna bore you with my life's story. Nope. I'm gonna talk about something rather more, for want of a better word, general. No, not sex. But LOVE.

You see, love is many thins to many people. Some people say it's that feeling you get when u just realized you've found The One. Some people just say it's "magical comfort food for the weak and uneducated". Most accurate definition of love that I've heard? "your souls's recognition of it's counterpart in another".

Love, as contrary to popular belief, is more than just feeling fond or caring about someone very deeply. It's way more than that. It's compatibility that you share with your partner. Something you develop over a certain amount of time. So this notion completely debunks the phrase "love at first sight". Sure you can feel attracted to a person the first time you see them, but that's just what it is. Attraction. But to be able to live with someone through thick and thin, paradise or hell, and be there for them everytime, that's LOVE.

Sure there are gonna be fights and misunderstandings but love, real love, just pulls you through all that. I mean, who's to say that a couple that's been together for 50 years have never had fights? Nobody's perfect and a couple that realizes that about each other are the ones that are gonna last a lifetime.

What I'm trying to say here is that sometimes you get sick of each other's faces. Sometimes you feel like you don't wanna hold them in your arms anymore. But loves always pulls you back together. If it doesn't it's not love. Simple as that.

Question is: why do people chase this feeling even when they know 70% of the time, that they're not gonna find it? Well it's because love makes you do crazy things. And you don't care. Because the joy and happiness, you might feel is just so much more worth it compared to the occasional pain you feel. I strongly believe in this fact. Love is definitely comfort alright but not only for the weak and uneducated, for everyone. Embrace it guys, it'll blow your mind. :-)

I wrote this as my way of expressing my feelings for my girlfriend, Farhin Fateha. I love you, babe. More than anything. And know that I'll always, always be there for you when you need me. I LOVE YOU.

Active again

Yo. My blog is officially active again. FYI, this is my first post from my iPhone. I'll be updating everyday from now on.

I have a few new lines for you guys to think about:

"Players never die. We just move to another table"

-Uncle Wayne

"Love is magical comfort food for the weak and uneducated"

-Connor Mead

Someone in their right mind tellme that they are BULLSHITTING. I got this from one of the best movies ever made Ghosts of Girlfriends Past.

Down and Out

Hey guys sorry i haven't been updating my blog in awhile. Just been really busy with Malam Bakat and all. So anyways, latest update is that i potentially have Dengue fever. Did the blood test yesterday and will be getting the results later this evening. So don't worry guys i'll be up and about in a week's time most probably.

So anyways, about Malam Bakat, it was actually entertaining. All the guys in the team got there just as the drum performance was about to start but we didn't go straight in because we left our ticks with Misha. So they went to the cafeteria to chomp down McD while i went down to the entrance to wait for Farhyn. She got there at 8, i think. So when she arrived we walked to the cafeteria as the girls were yet to arrive! Really? Does it take that long to do 6 people's make-up? Anyways, the girls got reached KBU at 8.30. I introduced Farhyn to my friends and thank god they all could get along with her. So, as soon as Misha arrived i took my ticks and went into the hall with Farhyn, Anis, Nik, The Jijol, and Mims. The show was good people shouting everywhere, just like a real concert. When i was done with my performance, i got changed met up with the rest and went down to McD. Yam-cha-ed while waiting for Farhyn's sister to come pick her up. Once she left, i got a ride with Mallek and spent the night at his place. So that's all for now, i guess. Ciao peeps.

P.S. I'm too fucking bored at home.

100 Truths

001. Real Name :Kamarul Bahrain Bin Kamarul Azhar
002. Nickname(s) : Bahrain, T.I.(haha)
003. Age : Soon to be 17
004. Horoscope : Scorpio
005. Gender : Male
006. Elementary : Can't recall
007. Primary School : SK Bandar Utama Damansara
008. Secondary School : SMK Bandar Utama Damansara (4)
009. College : Hopefully Taylor's
010. Hair Colour : Black with shades of brown
011. Hair Length : Too Short
012. Loud Or Quiet : Loud, really loud
013. Sweats or Jeans : Jeans
014. Phone or Camera : A phone with a camera
015. Health Freak : I take care of myself
016. Drink or Smoke : If you know me well enough, you would know.
017. Do you have a crush on someone : Farhyn
018. Eat or Drink : Both
019. Piercings : Getting one after SPM
020. Tattoos : Soon
021. Social or Anti-Social : Social, Definitely
022. Righty or lefty : Right
023. First Piercing : Ear, most probably
024. First Relationship : First real one that actually means something? Right now
025. First Best Friend : Amir Ishak
026. First Award : Ntah
027. First Kiss : Again you have to know me to know this
028. First Pet : Never had one
029. First Big Vacation : Australia
030. First love at first sight : probably, under the right circumstances
031. First Big Birthday : When i turned 2
032. First Surgery : Not yet
033. First sport you joined : Footbal/ Soccer
034. Orange or Apple juice : Fresh Orange Padang Kota
035. Rock or Rap : Rap
036. Country or Screamo : Neither
037. N-SYNC or Backstreet Boys : N-SYNC
038. Britney Spears or Christina Aguilera : Britney
039. Night or Day : Night
040. Sun or Moon : Stars
041. TV or Internet : Internet
042. PlayStation or Xbox : PlayStation
043. Kiss or Hug : When you're on the bed it doesn't matter
044. Iguana or Turtle : Iguana
045. Spider or Bee : None
046. Fall or Spring : Fall
047. Limewire or iTunes : iTunes
048. Soccer or Baseball : Soccer
049. Eating : A burger
050. Drinking : Coke
051. Excitement level : Alright je
052. I'm about to : Study
053. Listening to: nothing
054. Plans for today: heading to Bangi later
055. Waiting for : the right moment to ask her
056. Energy level : Sleepy
057. Thinking about someone : yessss
058. Want kids : Open for discussion Haha
059. Want to get married : so that i can eat out bcos my wife doesn't knw how to cook
060. When : when i become the PM of Malaysia
061. How many kids do you want : Open for discussion
062. Any name in mind : Nope
063. is missing (???) : Farhyn
064. is missing : Farhyn
065. Mellow future or Wild : Wild
066. Something you would never try : Eat cockroaches
067. Which is better in a girl : Her heart
068. Lips or Eyes : Eyes
069. Romantic or Funny : Romantic
070. is missing : my ring
071. Protective or Caring : Caring
072. Romantic or Spontaneous : Spontaneous
073. Nice stomach or Nice Arms : Whole Body
074. Sensitive or Loud : Sensitive
075. Hook-up or Relationship : Relationship
076. Trouble-maker or Hesitant : Trouble-maker
077. Muscular or normal : Normal
078. Kissed a stranger : Nope
079. Broken a bone : Dislocated Shoulder
080. Lost glasses/ contacts : yeah
081. Ran away from home : Nope
082. Held a gun/knife for self defense : Yup
083. Killed somebody : Nope
084. Broken someone's heart : Dunno
085. Had your heart broken : nope, but it took me awhile to realise that
086. Been arrested : Nope
087. Cried when someone died : nope
088. Liked a friend more than a friend : nope
089. Do you believe in yourself : Yes
090. Miracles : Yes
091. is missing ??? : bodoh
092. Heaven : A litlle of both to keep me on the edge
093. When do you want to die : when the times is right
094. Tooth Fairy : too old for that
095. Kiss on a first date : Nope
096. Dream Girl: 80% Angel, 20% Devil
097. Is there one person you want to be with right now : Farhyn
098. Are you seriously happy with your life rite now : Yes actually, happiest i've been in quite awhile
099. Do you believe in God : Allah S.W.T.
100. Will you post this as 100 truths and tag 10 people : 5 je eh?

I tag:-

Anis Kiss

Aisya Aminuddin Baki

Jin Wai

Jenny C

Elisa Ashlyn

Apology

I wanna start of with apologising to those who feel they deserve an apology from me. I know i've said some hurtful things to YOU and i can only say i did it because i was angry. I know that however serious our personal issues with each other, i shouldn't have made them public and say all that i said publicly. I'm really sorry and i hope it's not too late for you to accept my apology. From the bottom of my heart, I'M SORRY.

Playing with fire

What is the last thing you stole from a store?
never did

Who is the dumbest person you know?
***

Do you like cats?
dnt care abt they're existence

What do you think people say about you behind your back?
dnt really care. it's just ppl talking

Do you know anyone famous?
yeah. Anisssss. HAHA

What is something that you say all the time?
FUCK

Have you ever been arrested?
No.

Have you ever laughed so hard that you pissed your pants?
haha. i wish nope

Where is the person you want most?
otw to Gulam

Did your last relationship mean anything?
yeah. DON'T TRUST ANYBODY

Does your ex miss you?
fuck should i knw?? ask her

What are you doing tomorrow?
dancing

Are you easily confused?
nahh, future lawyer remember??

Where were you at 10am this morning?
wedding of a relative that i dnt even knw

Do you fall for people easily?
used to, but now noooppeee

What does your last text message say?
it's nothing important

What are you listening to right now?
fire burning- sean kingston

Something you wish you could tell someone but can't?
yeah, i hv a whole lotta secrets

Would you kiss the last person you kissed again ?
depends, right place, right time, maybe

Are you too forgiving?
yeah, but not anymore

Who do you miss?
nobody

If you could have any car what would it be?
Mustang GT500 

What are you stressed out about?
how am i gonna deal with the situation tmrw?

Who was your last call from?
ekin to remind me abt prac tmrw

What do you do with most of your time?
texting

Will you and your ex ever get back together?
hahaaha. nahh. but dee calls it 'cinta keling'. HAHAHA

What did you dream last night?
ntah

Does your phone ring in the middle of the night often?
yeahh. last night lilia called me to remind me to sembahyang subuh

Do you know anyone who is married?
no lahh. i live on a deserted island -_- 

Who was the last person to make you laugh?
Farouk

Are you currently single?
yeah. No more relationships

When was the last time you cried ?
ahaha. i'm a guy

Do you have a best friend?
aniss, misha and syafiq

Have you ever felt like killing somebody?
yeah

Who was the last person you wanted to punch in his/her face?
acap

Have you kissed any one on your top list?
nahh

Do you miss your past?
nope. i live in the moment

Mid-Year

Exams are done with. Back to dancing. So for those of you wondering about my last post, i volunteered to represent my school for FESTARI 2009. We went to Sri Aman and got ourselves in the final. So the next few weeks is gonna be close to hell with dancing everyday. But fuck all that, the big news is that The Jijol has finally seen the light at the end of the tunneland going for Umrah. Yes Umrah at Mecca. Good Luck with that ay Baldy? Haha. Oh and babe, I love you. You know who you are. :D

Tarian Pics

Me and Syuhadah

AnisKiss and Me

T.I and Rihanna

So anyways, I won't be blogging until mid-years done with so enjoy the pics.

p.s. Now it's Bahrain Harris

Pictures

There Cong puas hati ah you got your pics. Bloody camwhore. -_-

Cong and his pom poms

kononnya cool lah

Cong, Amelia, The Jgot

The week at school has been really boring. Most of the teachers and students were involved in preparation for sports day. So we didn't really learn anything. Oh yeah i got my hair cut by En. Najed. Hariz left for Mecca yesterday after sports day. Pray for us all bro. ;) Especially The Jijol. He needs it. Anyways, Sports Day was yesterday. It was quite a shame really. Blue house won the cheerleading competition but Green house should've won instead. The field was wet. And it was bloody hot! Oh and if you're wondering who won overall, it was Yellow house. Red house came in last. Haih useless. So due to the boredom of the whole week, some people decided to camwhore. Especially, Cong Kingston and Amelia. Here are the results:

Hariz Tahir

Juliet Moo

Amelia Lim.. Again

 

Idiocracy

It's been boring over the past few days. You know, there's always been the usual stuff: seeing the drama queen(Tasha), seeing The Jijol, going to Tuish, messing around with the science teacher. But besides all that it's been a dull, boring week. I can't believe i'm saying this but thank god school starts tmrw. I know it sounds insane that someone like me would miss SCHOOL! But think about it, school is where friends are. And to me friends are the most important thing. Besides, it's not all that bad. We've got the funny-trying-to-be-strict Mr. Kamal. Yes, Cong this is the one that you fought with few weeks ago. Then there's the always entertaining Mr. Siva a.k.a Chivas. So that's all for now. Soon i'll be blogging about my friends one-by-one. Till then.

Mraz Out!

Fucking Up My On Life

It's been a week full of confusion. Depressed? No. Betrayed? A little. Broken hearted? Definitely. This only means i can go back to my real lifestyle. So i have no hard feelings towards you. Honestly. I'm sorry your friends are starting to hate you. I'll talk to them. It just wasn't meant to be. Guys, don't hate her for it. Trust me, she didn't mean to do what she did. 

So anyways, on a lighter note. I was partying with Sean Kingston yesterday. Yes, the man himself. The big guy finally turned 18. Happy birthday bro. May you have many more. The barbecue was surprisingly fun. Met The Seniors again. Cong Kingston practically burned every piece of chicken on the grill. It was quite enjoyable. Pictures will be uploaded when i get'em. Till then...

Mraz Out!

Stupidity

Today was freaking boring. School was just pure boredom. Except for The Spotcheck. There's nothing like an early morning spotcheck to get your blood pumping. Not to mention, Cong Kingston having a fight with Kamal. Cong Kingston's phone got rampas-ed. But mine didn't. All thanks to Amelia. Oh, and there was a Maulidur Rasul thing at school. Not Maal Hijrah k Syu? ;-) Other than that the rest of the day was boring. So, Amelia decided to camwhore.

The Stupid Faces of Amelia Lim Yook Wan

Mraz Out!

Ecstasy

Today was officially the start of something new. Kan Syuhadah? Haha. You made me the happiest guy in the world when you said YES. I love you and i don't ever wanna lose you. You mean more to me than anything and i'm glad that we're finally together after all this time. :-)

So anyways, today was quite fun. As usual, I didn't learn in class. I had "Four free periods! ALRIGHT!" Teachers couldn't care less about what we were doing at the back. The Jijol got a grilling by Puan Lee all through first period. He was complaining that she was "targeting" him. Annoying gile. -_- Before she left she even came to The Jijol to say something. The Jgot was ROTFL when she did that. Sebenarnye, agak lawak la. Other than that, we just chilled in class and practically joked around and did nothing all day. Well the reality is that SPM is coming and none of us are paying attention in class except for the nerds. Worrying, i know. Signing out now.



Mraz Out!

Boredom

Today has been boring at best. Suicidal at worst. Fucking boring. Dah ah takde credit. Fuck betul la.-_- 

Intro

Today has been great. Life-changing. Got a call from The Jijol at abt 9.30 asking to go out. Fucking disturb my sleep. -_- Anyways, i got up showered, called Tasha and made plans to meet at OU at abt 1.30. Left for OU at abt 1, walked around, met up with The Jijol at 1.30. We ended up hanging in front of FCUK for abt ONE FUCKING HOUR before Tasha showed up. -_- Then we all went to Fish & Co. where i got Pau-ed by The Jijol for his lunch. -_- Anyways, half through he meal Nik and Elisa showed up and sat with us. We paid and left for OSC. Talked and planned to go to my house. But plans got fucked when Tasha couldn't come and none of us wanted to leave her alone. But we left anyways. HAHAHAHA. Sorry Tasha. Got home at 6 planned to go to Azad's party but those plans got fucked too. 

SO that was today.

Let me update you a little on how things have been going on in and around my life.

New pengetua at or school who's so "eager" to start his work here

The Jijol made another smart move in his life(not many) which is dumping that stupid bitch.

Oh and i started talking to Syuhadah again.

Oh and i'm digging the song Dead and Gone.

It was a fun day. And i scored an A1 for maths. 

Dig that nerds. *middle finger*