Friday, October 30, 2009

I wanna turn back time :(

So I'd never thought I'd say this but I DON'T want school to end. I mean like seriously, everyday just seems to go faster and faster lately. The weeks feel like days and the days feel like hours. It's sad, really. :,-(

Honestly, this year has been the best year of my life. No, not because I represented my school in something for the first time this year. Not because this is my last school year. No. It's actually because of the friends I made. I mean who would've thought that I'd be dancing a tradisional dance with people I barely even knew 7 months ago? I was actually pressured into it by my friend Amir Syafiq bin Azhar. And thank god he did. :)

That led to me experiencing the best 6 months I've ever lived. Honestly. And frankly, I'm just not satisfied yet. It's been too short a time for me to get to know Anis, Faris, Misha, Ekin, Sab, Syuhadah and the rest. But in the time that I HAVE had with them, I enjoyed immensely. To the point where I know some of them inside out. :)

Granted I've had my fair share of downs in the past year as well as ups. I've been through a very very VERY bad break up. But later found someone who is sooooo much more suitable for me and who, in my humble opinion, loves me more than anyone ever did: Farhin Fateha binti Azim. :) Love you babe! Not to mention I've ran into trouble more than once this year. MAJOR trouble. But let's not get into that shall we? :)

So back to the friends part, I honestly can't imagine my life without these few FESTARIANS. Namely Faris and Anis. They helped me through my rough patches and also they supported me when I was doing well. I'm not saying the rest are useless. Noooooo! Hellll no! All I'm saying is that Faris and Anis are the ones that made the biggest impact on me. :) Sooo, I'll pay a little tribute to all of you. Here goes:

You kannn. Haih. Honestly Anis I tak tau hidup I macam mana kalau you takde. Serious. :) You've been there for me through anything and everything. And I hope I was the same for you too. :) I just nak cakap thank you and I'll miss you but we'll still hangout k? Just gimme a call anytime. :)

Bro! Kau memang kawan yang baik. Aku ada masalah ke, apa ke kau confirm tolong aku bai. And kawan macam tu memang susah nak cari. So aku bernasib baik laa untuk dapat kawan macam kau. Aku cakap kat kau masa time Festari lagi bai, kau nak pape call je aku. Kalau aku boleh tolong definitely aku akan tolong. :) thank you bro and I'm going to miss you too.

Sha! Bai aku xle lupa time Rozana kita bai. Search pon akan kasi tabik sma Kota wa cakap sama lu. Ahaha. Kau memang the best Misha. Aku akan teringatkan kau Misha. Sampai bila-bila. :)

Our president yang kecil tetapi garang nak mampus! Ahaha. Kalau tak pasal dia, confirm we wouldn't have gotten to the finals. Berapa kali dia merajuk dgn kitorg sebab tak dengar cakap punya pasal. Ahaha. Ekin you bagi I advice not too long ago and I was, I admit, cocky about it at the time. But I'm not ashamed to say that sekarang I dah ikut that advice and I hope sampai bila-bila we can remain friends. :) Thanksand sorry for everything. :)

She's my ex. She's cute, perky, and fun to be around. I've had a whole lot of fun with her and I hope she'll never forget me no matter what. :) I've said some hurtful things to her in the past and I hope she'll one day forgive me for it. Know that I still care about you as a friend and you can come to me about anything. I'll help you if I can. :) For what it's worth, I really did enjoy our moments together. They meant a lot to me. Memories that will last me a lifetime. :)

So there you have it. The people that changed my life amazingly over this past 6 months. You guys will always be in my thoughts. I've had fun. I've had sadness. Yet I'm okay with all that. I'm okay with a life that's been up and down. After all, what's the thrill of a life that just goes well all the time? ;-)

Friday, October 16, 2009

Thanks Saaa!

For those of you that are wandering about the title.......Liesa called me McDreamy people!!!! Hahaha. Thanks Saa! Didn't know i was THAT good-looking. Ahaha. Well then again what are best friends for kan??? Ahaha

Pure Fun

So today has got to be my luckiest day ever. Started at 9.30. I was waken up by a phone call by Maxis. Turns out my new iPhone arrived early. Waaaaayyyyy early. So after Friday Prayers, went to pick it up. After that went to visit the grandparents who happened to be down with something. Stayed there till about 5.30 then went to Tropicana City Mall. Walked around a little bit then proceeded for dindin's at The Waterlily, Mutiara Tropicana. Food's quite amazing actually. Indonesian food, to be exact. I just got home about 20 mins ago and currently in the process of restoring my iPhone then gonna head for bed. Ciao people. So fucking tired.

Monday, October 12, 2009

New Beginnings

Yo people. Guess what? I fucked up my left ankle again. That's like the third time this year. -_- Seriously it's getting bloody fucking annoying. So today has been mediocre at best, boring at worst. Not too bad, right? Wrong! Tell me how the fuck am i suppose to walk around with practically only ONE functioning foot? Bollocks. Anyways, back to the day's story, today all 6 of us came to school which felt like something that hadn't happened in a long time. Lately it's only been me and Cong coming to school cause the rest are all lazy fucks right? AHAHA. My iPhone's suffering from god knows what so I'll be taking that to Maxis in the morning.

Actually, i think I've experienced my best ever school day on Friday last week. I mean it's been a long time since i hung out with my form 3 classmates. So that brought back some nostalgic feelings la. ;-) So anyways, I've been facing sort of an emotional dilemma, hence, the post titled, "Can't Fight This Feeling". Honestly, I love my girlfriend, It's just that i felt guilty to her for allowing myself to be in a situation where "old feelings" start to crop up again. And for that babe, i apologize from the bottom of my heart. I honestly don't know why i did what i did. But if anything, that post should prove to you that YOU are the only one in my heart. :-) Damn, that's cheesy. Haha. Well ciao peeps. See ya when the sun comes up. Haha.

Saturday, October 10, 2009

Can't Fight This Feeling

I have personally had my ups and downs when it comes to relationships. Relax! I'm not gonna bore you with my life's story. Nope. I'm gonna talk about something rather more, for want of a better word, general. No, not sex. But LOVE.

You see, love is many thins to many people. Some people say it's that feeling you get when u just realized you've found The One. Some people just say it's "magical comfort food for the weak and uneducated". Most accurate definition of love that I've heard? "your souls's recognition of it's counterpart in another".

Love, as contrary to popular belief, is more than just feeling fond or caring about someone very deeply. It's way more than that. It's compatibility that you share with your partner. Something you develop over a certain amount of time. So this notion completely debunks the phrase "love at first sight". Sure you can feel attracted to a person the first time you see them, but that's just what it is. Attraction. But to be able to live with someone through thick and thin, paradise or hell, and be there for them everytime, that's LOVE.

Sure there are gonna be fights and misunderstandings but love, real love, just pulls you through all that. I mean, who's to say that a couple that's been together for 50 years have never had fights? Nobody's perfect and a couple that realizes that about each other are the ones that are gonna last a lifetime.

What I'm trying to say here is that sometimes you get sick of each other's faces. Sometimes you feel like you don't wanna hold them in your arms anymore. But loves always pulls you back together. If it doesn't it's not love. Simple as that.

Question is: why do people chase this feeling even when they know 70% of the time, that they're not gonna find it? Well it's because love makes you do crazy things. And you don't care. Because the joy and happiness, you might feel is just so much more worth it compared to the occasional pain you feel. I strongly believe in this fact. Love is definitely comfort alright but not only for the weak and uneducated, for everyone. Embrace it guys, it'll blow your mind. :-)

I wrote this as my way of expressing my feelings for my girlfriend, Farhin Fateha. I love you, babe. More than anything. And know that I'll always, always be there for you when you need me. I LOVE YOU.